What's wrong with me is the fact that everything this entire past month and a half has gone wrong and I don't know what to do about it anymore.
Crawford comes and stays for a few days and leaves as if he were never here. Tot does the exact same thing and I don't even get the chance to figure out if she even realizes that I thought she was dead or not. Then the one person I'd rather see dead comes back instead of either one of them, trying to treat me like I'm some sort of friend all of a sudden, and he's the one who gets to stay?
And then I try to prove something and only end up in making things even worse than they were to begin with. You can bail me out all you want but at this point I don't know what to do.
[He pauses for a little while before sending anything else, because none of that was what he had intended to say in the first place at all.]
I don't even want to be here. This used to be the place I came to to get away from everything the world had to offer and now it's starting to blur together.
And there is no way out unless this place wants you gone.
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Crawford comes and stays for a few days and leaves as if he were never here. Tot does the exact same thing and I don't even get the chance to figure out if she even realizes that I thought she was dead or not. Then the one person I'd rather see dead comes back instead of either one of them, trying to treat me like I'm some sort of friend all of a sudden, and he's the one who gets to stay?
And then I try to prove something and only end up in making things even worse than they were to begin with. You can bail me out all you want but at this point I don't know what to do.
[He pauses for a little while before sending anything else, because none of that was what he had intended to say in the first place at all.]
I don't even want to be here. This used to be the place I came to to get away from everything the world had to offer and now it's starting to blur together.
And there is no way out unless this place wants you gone.
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Don't leave the damn house, don't talk to anyone. I'll come get you later.
Fucking hell.
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Fine. I won't.