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[unkinder]

Is it unreasonable to want to just forget about someone, even though the universe seems bound and determined to continuously remind you of their existence?

[Especially when this world apparently saw fit to give you a picture of someone you've been trying to just move on from. A picture that would probably be better left destroyed, yet...hasn't been.]

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[Text]

[ratherbelocky]

[This little lady doesn't know how to respond in anonymous kind. But her trainer is busy and she HAS been learning how to read, and--this? This topic is something of a curiosity to her. Laboriously, letter by letter, she puts together a question.]

why do you want forget?

[Anonymous forever]

[unkinder]

The situation involving them was painful and unfortunate. They aren't pleasant memories.

[...mostly, anyway.]

[ratherbelocky]

[Ah. Hm. Delta Two dithers for a little while, hand to her face, before her next reply.]

they gone?

[unkinder]

[...]

Yes. They're gone.

[ratherbelocky]

gone is painful.

[She understands that much, given the group she's with.]

but better if memories go gone too?

why is better?

[unkinder]

...sometimes I wonder if it would be better, just forgetting. It won't happen, clearly, but I wonder. Maybe it feels like not remembering would be less painful.

It's the reminders that keep cropping up that I can't seem to get away from.

[First the thing he's referring to actually happens, then they literally show up here one weekend, and now...this photograph. He would wonder if this place was trying to tell him something, but now it just feels like he's being mocked.]

[ratherbelocky]

you want let go
but memories keep happen?
i understand.

but if memories not happen
um
reminders?
reminders. reminders not happen, they also gone.
more gone.
that gone isnot painful?

[unkinder]

[He'd been wondering, but given that typing...it's not hard to guess, now, who he's talking to. But that doesn't make this conversation easier.]

I...I really don't know. I'm just tired of being upset over this. I don't want to care about it any more.

[ratherbelocky]

[Man, Pat the Buneary really hasn't given her the vocabulary to deal with complex emotional subjects.]

my people
had much gone. each other was gone, and more others also.
they are painful a lot.
i feel it.

i want help them. but i do not know if is good, the forget.
he got reminders picture, and it hurt. but he laugh?
i am
@~@

[unkinder]

[...so he isn't the only one, then.]

It is different for everyone. It's just hard for me to overlook the hurt to focus on the good.

I'm not sure how else to explain it.

[ratherbelocky]

oh! yes i understand.
my people, they are different for them too. they do not all laugh.
but even thuo
thoug
tough they are like reminders pictures of gones and painfuls to each other, they want be together.
do you have together people?

[unkinder]

...I do, in a way.

[IT'S...complicated.]

I have more now since I have lived here.

[ratherbelocky]

stay together to people i think is good.
more laugh happens that way.
you do not hafto um
overlook?
the painful.
more good happens every day in together so just have more good for look at.

[unkinder]

I suppose it depends on what sort of people you choose to stay with as to how much good you will get out of being with them. And even then, it's never guaranteed.

[...]

But I understand what you are saying.

[ratherbelocky]

^_^

that is a smile face
for good.

let go is easier if other things to hold.

[unkinder]

[...oh.]

...I received a picture, myself. Of the person I'm referring to.

Should I keep it?

[ratherbelocky]

ummm
if it makes you sad then maybe is not so good for look at it soon.
but if later there is more good for you, then you are together to the reminders picture if you keep it, and it is not gone. and maybe you laugh too even if there is hurt.

but also only if it is a pretty picture with colors.

[unkinder]

I don't think I want to look at it right now, no.

[It makes him angry more than anything, but at least that's an easier emotion for him to deal with than sadness.]

At the moment, I feel as if I wouldn't regret disposing of it. ...but perhaps later, I would.

[...]

It is very colorful.

[ratherbelocky]

colors are pretty! i like yellow. i hope there is a lot yellow on your picture.

you can put it away to a box and not look at. and then you have it in case for later.

[unkinder]

[There is a lot more pink and blue than yellow, but the colors of the photo seem vibrant enough to almost be real. It would be a good keepsake for anyone else, really...even him, if he had the capacity right now to appreciate it.]

I'll find something to do with it, I'm sure. I just...was not expecting to receive it.

[ratherbelocky]

is like surprise?
sometimes surprise is bad.

then people say sorry and buy drinks.
i can not buy drinks, so i say
sorry.
since the person give the reminders pictures is not here for understand why is can be bad.

[unkinder]

[Funny, he almost laughs at that.]

I'm not one who appreciates surprises much.

[He's also not old enough to drink so he feels you on that...]

[ratherbelocky]

my people too.
they are soldiers.

they punch surprise.

are you soldier?

[unkinder]

You could say that. I'm sure I'm a little different from the kind you're thinking of, though.

[ratherbelocky]

why different?